The Comfort Zone

First, the bright spot in my week–a lovely assortment of teas and a beautiful tea cozy from Grace of Lovin Comfort Knits as my contest winnings.  I have made good use of the teas already and love the cozy although it does not fit well on the tea pot I chose that day. It now has an assigned pot it fits perfectly.  You can also see that I have already made good use of the cute little utility bag that was included.  Thanks Grace!! You are so sweet!

This whole week has taken on an unreal aura and knitting has fallen low on my list of priorities.  A dear friend was in a horrible auto accident and her life still hinges on her survival for another 24 hours.  She has had two surgeries and had to be resuscitated when her heart stopped.  Her injuries are too numerous to state and she is my age, which isn’t young by any means.  Puts things in the proper perspective doesn’t it!  Our daughters are close friends and are clinging together as they did when I was in the hospital and my fate was also unknown.

How do you knit when something like this happens?  I’ve heard knitters say that they survived on their knitting during long hospital vigils.  I, on the other hand, couldn’t bring myself to knit when Mother had that final stroke.  It seemed so frivolous!  I just sat, alternately staring into space and praying.  Knitting was the last thing on my mind for weeks after she passed.  When I was finally able to pick up my knitting again I am certain I felt her hand on my shoulder and knew her approval but until that moment it was low, low in my priorities.

Maybe it is because I am one step removed from this tragedy that I am able to knit, but my need to finish things already started instead of starting new projects says something about the effect of my dear friend’s condition on my awareness of life’s vulnerability.  We have to start new things or life would stand still but how do you bring yourself to start new things when life is already standing still and may not move again for…well, at least 24 hours.  We will go on day to day after that and pray for another minute and another, and another.

Please pray for my dear friend and all of us who love her and need her.